I have been thinking a lot about faith and logic lately, as it relates to God and the suffering here on earth. Why is there so much suffering in the world? How can God allow such atrocities? Why does God allow there to be such bad people in the world? These are questions that have plagued us for centuries. I am unwilling to believe that there is no God, which would be the “easy” answer to these questions, so I came up with an alternate theory in an attempt to explain them.
Let’s start out with some premises:
1. God exists.
2. God is omnibenevolent (all-good).
3. God is omniscient (all-knowing); therefore, He is aware of the horrendous atrocities occurring in the world, and in our lives.
4. God is omnipotent (Almighty, in control, ruler); therefore, He is able to intervene in human matters.
5. God loves us.
6. There is suffering on earth.
Add them all together and what have we got? We’ve got a loving God that sees the atrocities and suffering happening, has the power to stop them, yet does not. Since I am not willing to accept that there is no God, my mind can only find two ways to reconcile those opposing premises. One is purgatory, and the other is my Theory of Scripts and Projections.
Let’s start with the purgatory assumption. I don’t think there is scripture that supports this, but the thought did occur to me, so I am including it. Consider that we are all currently in purgatory. Maybe we all, at some previous point, committed some terrible moral wrongs, and we are all here paying for those wrongs through what we know as “life.” We go through awful things, see our loved ones suffer, and we, ourselves, suffer. Maybe this purgatory is the only way to reconcile our souls before we can join the rest of those who are already deemed good enough to go to Heaven. Maybe if we take our punishments with grace and keep the faith we get to move on up, and if we do not, then we take the down elevator instead. (Side note: Biblically speaking, there is no scripture to support the idea of “eternally” burning in hell. Maybe people will burn in hell, but not for eternity – maybe just for a minute until their soul is officially gone. Similarly, there is no scripture to support that you go straight to Heaven after you die. According to scripture, there is a sleeping period, then you get awoken at the rapture.)
Now that purgatory has been discussed, is there any other conclusion that can follow from the above stated premises?
A loving God who sees the suffering going on and does not intervene: what other conclusion reasonably follows?
My Theory of Scripts and Projections states that the awful things happening aren’t actually happening. Reality, as you know it, is not real. The loving God that I know wouldn’t allow such suffering to His children; therefore, it is not happening. At least not in the way you think it is. We only perceive it as happening. (Similarly, the good things you perceive to be happening, also are not happening; they, too, are merely projections.)
Let me explain further.
It is possible that I am the only one within my realm of (what I know as) “reality” who has consciousness; and every other “person” I see and/or know is not real, but only a projection of my mind; rather, God’s mind. A script is running at all times: the experiences and people I perceive are all scripted; fabricated. Therefore, if the projections are committing atrocities toward each other, it is not really happening. God would not allow such horrible things to actually occur, so I conclude that they aren’t actually occurring at all. That is the only way my mind can reconcile an existent and loving God with a world full of suffering. My responses to these scripts and projections are what I will ultimately be judged by. Whether or not I fully live by what I believe in, whether or not I kept the faith in spite of everything that has been seemingly thrown at me.
The only thing that makes sense, the only logical conclusion, is that everyone is living their own personal existence, and no one else in YOUR world actually exists – only YOU exist in YOUR world, and everyone else is a projection following a script. This does not mean that you are the only one here; the only one being tested. Everyone else exists in THEIR OWN world, with THEIR OWN projections.
In this theory, God can watch on and let horrible things happen to your loved ones, because your loved ones are merely projections, they don’t exist. This is a test; this is only a test. The only thing that exists is you, your reactions to the script, and your faith through it all. Can you still believe in God when all these horrible things are happening? Sure, because they aren’t really happening; you only perceive them to be happening.
This would be a less cruel and more reasonable explanation and alternative to living an actual life, with actual people, and actual suffering, while an actual God watches, has the ability to stop it, and yet does nothing.
Apply this theory to the Biblical stories I talked about in my last blog post: let’s apply it to the story of Job. Recall that all of Job’s kids were killed as collateral damage of God’s faith test for Job. Now, God didn’t seem too worried about the state of Job’s children; only the state of Job. In the context of my theory, Job was the central figure, and his children were merely Job’s projections; they didn’t actually exist. The God that I know and love would not kill people (children, no less) as an experiment for someone else’s benefit. If the children ever actually existed, they, too, would be entitled to a life and all that it entails. In my theory, if Job’s children actually existed, it was not in Job’s realm, because there they were merely projections; rather, their existence could have been in their own realms with their own scripts and projections, separate from that of Job’s.
Don’t let this fool you into thinking that nothing matters, that no one matters. It all matters the same as it did before. You will still be judged on who you are and what you do. It’s just that the people you love cannot be harmed, because they do not exist; or if they do exist, they exist in their own realms, in their own “realities” and have their own scripts; completely separate from yours.
It is possible that we all actually even have the same script; that way, we can all be judged on equal grounds. So, my script has me living a life as a woman with a husband and two children. Maybe that is everyone’s script. Maybe my husband and children actually exist in their own realms as a woman with a husband and two children, who are also projections; and so on and so forth. Or maybe we all get the same few scripts, so we live several different versions to see how we react to living different lives.
God wants us to trust Him, even if we do not understand Him. I know, above all else, that God is good. I know that there is a perfect answer to every question we have for Him. Perhaps there are answers that our limited human minds cannot even currently fathom, which is why He asks us to trust Him and “lean not on our own understanding.” I assume that, once we get to ask Him our many questions, the answers will be profound and that His love will shine through it all – every answer making perfect sense. His reasons for what we went through here on earth will be revealed to us one day; but for now, it is fun to ponder – beyond just what is commonly believed.